I didn't ask to be born into this cruel and miserable world. And I didn't ask to suffer like this. Why do I have to suffer this cruel torment? What have I done to deserve this? This world and this society should rot in Hell for all I care for what it did to me. I want my miserable life to end but I want a painless way to die and suicide is too painful for me. I'm too afraid of a painful way to die. But I just want to my life to just end already because: 1. I have no money to pay the bills. And now my air conditioner doesn't work and without air conditioner I have to sleep in a very hot room. I live in central Israel and it is very hot where I live. And without air conditioner to keep me cool I would likely get seriously sick from hyperthermia, fever, heat exhaustion or even heat stroke. 2. I have no food to eat and I'm already in starvation mode. 3. I cannot get a job now because of criminal record (theft of services to be precise) and without a job I will soon become homeless, probably dying in the street with no food, no protection from the scorching summer heat and no security and roof over my head and a soft bead to sleep on. My life is completely collapsing now and I would soon be homeless with no opportunity to get a job and to improve my life. My life has become a nightmare and I'm better of dead already but I just want a painless way to die.