So tired. Feel like everything is crashing down on me again. I do not want to act like things will get better anymore. . even that is to much. Keep think about ways to kill myself. I know I should get help and start taking my meds again, but I just want to die. Sick of hearing it is going to work out. Sick of getting asked how I feel are you ok. do not want another round of chemo. Just want to give up. Sick of my kids watching me puck all the time. Sick of not being able to do much. I just know it is time. My husband is taking my kids to see his parents this week end could I do it than.