I tired of this constant fear and anxiety snapping at my heels. I'm sick of the hurt, and life's "surprises" around the corner. I'm TIRED of surprises. I want OUT, and I want it now. I'm sick of nobody listening, of people not taking how _I_ may feel into account, and I'm fed up with people telling me that life'll get better. I've been hearing that shit since '05, and if life was gonna get better, it would have already. I hate feeling envious of all my friends because they got the good lives. Heaven, Hell, whatever happens after you die, I want it. I don't care how things'll be after it's all over. I don't care about those that may or may not love me. I want the pain to go away for good. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I'm out.