Every day is painful and it only looks like it's going to get more painful. I live alone and I feel so like I'm on my own. The main thing that stops me from ending my life is the effect it would have on my daughter. I would be transferring my pain to her. My life is a financial mess and I'm not getting out of it soon. I used to be preoccupied with money and, since I'm not working, I'm obsessed with it. I have trouble spending money for food. I was at the grocery store the other day and my appetite shut down. I didn't want to buy anything. I had to force myself to pick out something to eat because I had nothing at home. I've got to send out a check today to continue the health insurance for myself and my daughter and it terrifies me. Ultimately, I feel like I'm never getting another job and every dollar I spend brings me that much closer to homelessness. I feel so worthless. I feel like everyone would be better off if I killed myself and left them the money I do have.