I'm a 34 yr old female. In the last year I have been tormented by life. It started when I bought a brand new car and a month later, someone took a crowbar to it and stole everything. My wallet, my identity everything they could. Than I got hit on the side by a van. I overcame that easily. Than my roommate took off and stopped paying bills, so I was left paying for everything and I only make enough salary to get by. 3 months went by and I found out she stole my inactivated credit card and racked it up. I had no idea so I got an R5 hit on my credit and am now stuck paying that. One day while I was at work, she came home and stole everything, I came home to just my bed, tv and clothes. A few days later I got evicted because I was struggling to pay everything by myself. And than, the love of my life who I was supposed to move in with in June, broke up with me and went back to her ex. (fyi I'm a lesbian) She was my world, she was all I had left that I was happy about at the time. We were each others world. Now I don't even exist to her, one day she loved me and the next she's gone and I'm left broken. I work with her and I see how happy she is and I'm so broken. It's not fair. How does she stop loving me so quick? How can I not exist so fast to her? ..A couple days ago I got my taxes back and I owe $2000. I can't handle the pain anymore, I'm at my rock bottom and still getting kicked. I want to die and end the pain, so bad. I'm not saying this to get attention, I would have done it by now if I knew I'd die but I'm so scared to try and it doesn't work. I need something that will work. I can't love anymore, I don't have anything left in me. I'm so hurt and so full of pain, it won't go away. My friends don't know what to do with me anymore.