i don't normally post in this section, but I had a really bad morning...well, almost everyday is bad, but this morning I have been wanting to end this pain so bad. first, I really despise my family. i am in my late 20's, haven't finished college, and am not working (not on purpose) and I live with my aunt. they hold over my head what i can't do and are sometimes just flat out wrong. they make assumptions and are often times discouraging. rather than talk and understand certain habits i have like cutting and drinking, they just say to stop or talk down to me as if that's going to make me do so. speaking of drinking, yeah, i drink alcohol, and while it is a choice, one reason why i make that choice is because i get so tired hurting emotionally. the same can be said when i cut. living with my aunt can be hard at times. for example, i got angry at her because all day she nagged, which she doesn't see as nag, because as she puts it, only wives can nag. i felt bad about it, but it also is getting to be overwhelming. like i can't get some freaking tap water at night without her saying something. the rest of my family have some stupid habits too and to list them would take all day. and im not saying im a good person....im a terrible person, but that doesn't mean i like getting talked down to. I have so much bottled up anger that i was so mad this morning that i cut. i can't talk to them about how hard this is because they don't care, but they expect me to see things from their often half assed prospective. there's more, but im tired. im sorry if this came out confusing.