I am too coward to commit suicide. I always wanted to die earlier since i was 16. life has no meaning at all it's all about the money, money gives happiness and solves 99% of the problems. School really sucks I hate it and I can't force myself to work hard, not doing well at all so I will not make a lot of money in the future. Life has no meaning, all my friends left me, my gf dumped me. If there is a creator then I really hate him he is playing me like a chess game he's enjoying it but I am not.