i dont want the dogs, i dont want the puppies, i dont want the fish, i dont want the work, i dont want to go home, i dont want anyone or anything. everytime i start to get a few minutes to myself to uncramp my damn brain so i can think, theres always something just something that will need my DAMN attention. fucking anything and everything how damn hard is it to have a day, 24 hours of pure solitude .. im possible and JusT when i get 4 hours to myself! minus looking after fucking dogs puppies and fish i get a fucking phone call from my mom talking about flights back home! Fuck im in debate about going back permenatly because im so fucked up im geting worse and making everyone else around me miserable. but i dont want to thbink about it! id dont want to talk about it. I want to sit, play the stupid game that I hate, because Ill get so fed up with it that ill get into my mind set that im wasting time and start thinking about things properly. but nooo no no no i cant do that. Fuck no Ive got to be fucking hijacked by someone elses flow of life. Fuck your life! Leave me alone! .. just dont feel sad about it. I hate that! .. ug now my teas cold . for fuck sakes.