Hi, guys I can't keep up with my life anymore. I'm turning 19 next week, but i feel like i've been living for a thousand years. I feel tired and bored with life. It's been like that for four years cuz i spent 3 years in country where i had no friends i was basically kept like a prisoner at home with no one to hang out with. Now, I'm in college and I realise there's nothing I'm good at, there is nothing that interests me in the studies or in life. I'm pressurd\ed to choose mojors/minors and stuff like that but i don't see the point. It's just that I'm not gifted, I'm not talented to do whatever, i don't have the energy to work hard. My life seems pointless to me. I went to a shrink but it didn't work out. I feel so depressed seing smiling faces around me, people getting good grades, enjoying their lives. I hate everything. How can I die painlessly and but an end to that stroy, I really dont wanna live ;( Every day is burden..