I've been self harming for over 10 years now but it's never been as bad as it is now. I haven't cut in a few days but i really feel like I need to now. My heads full of horrible thoughts of myself and I can't get the thought of cutting out of my head. It's like an addiction I feel like I have to do it to feel better. I've got scars all over my arm's and legs that ashame me but also make me feel proud like I can achieve something. I've had a bad, dark day like the rest in my life. I can see the razor and I want to cut hard and deep. I feel scared and alone.