Hi guys.
i hope you feel better than me.
i don't know where to start.
I have so much to say. Even today i wanted to end my life. Nothing is right, nothing has ever been in fact. the only time everything was okay was when i was still away from this shitty teenage world, where i was innocent, and i spent afternoons playing with my toys. Since then, nothing has gone well. My conditions is getting worse, and i tell everyone around me it's getting better, when all i want is to leave this fucking world, start a better life again if reincarnation exists, or get people rid of me. This depressed girl, this sad girl, who simply does not breathe the joy of living.
Two days ago, my mom was taken on board; i have lost friends, today was the 18th birthday of the person who hurt me the most in my life, i need those friends i lost.
In fact no, i did not lose them, they literally abandoned me.
yes, it was those who said "we do not play with your heart" or even "I would always be there for you", but if now they knew that it is they who play with my heart, that it is them who are gone. If they knew about such a bad patch that I am living in this place that I can not show in this post, at the risk of annoying you with my dark clouds above my head.
In 2 days I will resume school, boarding school. I'm going to have to put on a fake smile again, and have to cry over my bloody scars in the dark, alone, in my room, with my sad music in my ears. As I'm used to actually ...
i hope you feel better than me.
i don't know where to start.
I have so much to say. Even today i wanted to end my life. Nothing is right, nothing has ever been in fact. the only time everything was okay was when i was still away from this shitty teenage world, where i was innocent, and i spent afternoons playing with my toys. Since then, nothing has gone well. My conditions is getting worse, and i tell everyone around me it's getting better, when all i want is to leave this fucking world, start a better life again if reincarnation exists, or get people rid of me. This depressed girl, this sad girl, who simply does not breathe the joy of living.
Two days ago, my mom was taken on board; i have lost friends, today was the 18th birthday of the person who hurt me the most in my life, i need those friends i lost.
In fact no, i did not lose them, they literally abandoned me.
yes, it was those who said "we do not play with your heart" or even "I would always be there for you", but if now they knew that it is they who play with my heart, that it is them who are gone. If they knew about such a bad patch that I am living in this place that I can not show in this post, at the risk of annoying you with my dark clouds above my head.
In 2 days I will resume school, boarding school. I'm going to have to put on a fake smile again, and have to cry over my bloody scars in the dark, alone, in my room, with my sad music in my ears. As I'm used to actually ...