Hey, Um.. ..So I was on an unemployment benefit for a while. Too depressed to look for work, just sitting in my caravan turning the heater on and off. Too depressed to even play a video game or listen to music. Today I got a warning telling me that I'm going to be Reduced next week if I don't find work. I feel overwhelming helplessness, given that I can't even go out with friends, given not only the budget limit, but the fact that virtually none of my real life friends say Hi to me. Not even once a week. I'm no longer interested in this life. I'm a person who naturally takes her time to do things. I can't cope with this pressure. I capitulate.