I'm so low that my hole I'm stuck in just lost it's bottom... I honestly dont see the point in living anymore. I have no friends irl, they all left me when they suspected something was up. Basically, I'm 16. Ive been bullied for 12 years. I've been called bitch, fat, ugly, stupid, useless, dumb etc etc. I've lost two grandpants and a dog to cancer. I've been sexually abused /raped (depends on your definition) at least twice, but two different people. My mum found out about the second time and blamed it on me. I'm expected to be perfect all the time. but, I can't do it. I just can't... I cant take the pain of life right now. I need someone to listen, someone who cares. Someone who understands what it's like. Right now, I don't want to live. I don't want to go on. I honestly feel like I can't handle life. Im constantly thinking ablutions suicide and self harm, and by myself I don't feel safe. I don't trust myself... I'm crying out for help, someone, anyone??