How long do I have to live with this hurt? I hurt 24/7. I have totally failed at life. I let all the ones that counted on me down. That pain hurts so bad. Why God why? What did I do so wrong to deserve this much pain? The last thread that held my life together, the last thread of hope that got me out of bed in the morning and to keep trying is gone. I always picked up the pieces before and tried one more time. But why bother now? My life is empty. My heart hurts so bad I have actual chest pains. Although I failed at nearly everything it was okay I would bounce back and try twice as hard and put twice as much heart into it. But how do you put your heart back into life again when your in this much pain? I need to find the courage to just do it. Just get it over with. There is so much I wanted to accomplish in life. So many more dreams. I keep thinking maybe things will get better. But reality tells me I'll be in the same situation again, Same hurt again later. I honestly cant think of a reason to live anymore. I just want it over with and over with now. No more failures, No more hurt. No more tears. What did I do so wrong to deserve this much hurt? I just pray in the after life there isnt any pain.