Thats all thats going through my head right now. I was doing so well these lasttwo days, and then shit happened. And then more stuff happened. And I just kept getting pulled further and further down. Now I just have no motivation to keep optimistic. I want to talk to someone, but everyone is already hurting they dont need more pain. I'll just bottle it all up inside again and live life an empty shell once more. I just want to sleep tonight and never wake up. Im sorry. I failed.