I want to die

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by _Lily_, Dec 25, 2013.

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  1. _Lily_

    _Lily_ Forum Buddy

    I feel so low unsure if am sane or insane. Today I ate loads pig I have an eatting disorder I restrict some time binge sometimes and a few times when my husband isn't here purge I am also obese I can't get any help because my bmi is too high am 40 bmi has to be 16 or lower the only way they will see me is if am diabetic witch am not. Am so tired of this shit. I also hear voices and see things zombies with there skin hanging off so graphic I took my night time meds and am in bed with my phone. I don't want my husband to know what am planing but I can't say it here either. I can't call anyone because my husband will know there's something wrong I don't want spoil christmas for him am waiting for after the hoildays to do this. I need to do this
     
  2. flowers

    flowers Senior Member

    hi Aisha. I am REALLY sorry to hear things are so difficult. It sounds like a meds change might be important to consider. If you are hearing voices and seeing things then that does mean that you would want different meds. yes? If you need support now, and you cannot make a phone call, do you think you might be able to email the samaritans? I personally think calling somplace now would be the best thing to do. But to email them is better than nothing. http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-ca...s-you-can-get-touch/what-happens-when-i-email
    you will find a link to send an email.

    If you find you can phone, you could also call the mind infoline http://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/helplines/ I do believe they can advocate on behalf ofpeople who need help now and are having trouble getting it.

    I am hoping you can find a way to make a phone call today. But if not, please do try to email the samaratans. safe :hug: if thats okay,
     
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