I have tried so hard to get better. I have tried to get help. Everything keeps going wrong. I knew it would all end this way. Dont know why I bothered trying to be something I never will be. I cannot stand this pain anymore. I am sorry I am such a worthless excuse of a person. I am sorry I cannot do anything right. I am sorry I was such a horrible person. The only reason I had left to try is gone. I cannot do this anymore.