I will always be such a failure. No matter how far I think I am progressing, I always go back to this place. I am crying, I feel numb, I speak robotically, death is giving me a sense of peace. No matter how much I think I can trust people, they will always turn against me. I open up and then I get used. It doesn't matter anymore, I know my own worth, and I have none. I just need to get this oer with and finally be where I belong.