im 27 years old, i have 2 kids and i live with my ex husband. i have bipolar 1. im so sick of these mood swings. i want to die. i keep thinking about ending my life. so far i've gone over several possible methods. idk what to do about all of this. i'm trying so hard to keep going, mostly for my kids' sake. i don't want to just abandon them here in this f*cked up life.