I am the luckiest person in this world. And I fucked it all up.
I have the most supported, understanding and tolerance Mother in the world. She would do anything, give up anything she has, even her life, for me.
I have 2 best friends, who no matter what a shitty friend am I, still love me and support me. I don't know what's good I have done to deserve them.
But still, I let them down, over and over again.
It's never because life treated me bad. It's all because of me. It's all because of the choices I have made. I'm designed to fuck things up and let the people I love down. It's just who I am. I'm wired that way.
I can't live with myself anymore, I can't let someone love me, because eventually I'll let them down. I am a fucking fraud.
So I want to end things. I don't want to hear their solutions when I mess up, they should have told me that I was a stupid son of a bitch. I don't want to see them sacrifice their lives for my stupid choices.
This might sounds selfish, but it is for them. They will see that I am a burden that they need to throw away. They'll see it eventually. If not, this is the last time I'll let them down. Because if I continue to live, it's a guarantee that I will disappoint them again. At least thist time, I won't have to see it.
So please, tell me what is the best way to end my life.
I have the most supported, understanding and tolerance Mother in the world. She would do anything, give up anything she has, even her life, for me.
I have 2 best friends, who no matter what a shitty friend am I, still love me and support me. I don't know what's good I have done to deserve them.
But still, I let them down, over and over again.
It's never because life treated me bad. It's all because of me. It's all because of the choices I have made. I'm designed to fuck things up and let the people I love down. It's just who I am. I'm wired that way.
I can't live with myself anymore, I can't let someone love me, because eventually I'll let them down. I am a fucking fraud.
So I want to end things. I don't want to hear their solutions when I mess up, they should have told me that I was a stupid son of a bitch. I don't want to see them sacrifice their lives for my stupid choices.
This might sounds selfish, but it is for them. They will see that I am a burden that they need to throw away. They'll see it eventually. If not, this is the last time I'll let them down. Because if I continue to live, it's a guarantee that I will disappoint them again. At least thist time, I won't have to see it.
So please, tell me what is the best way to end my life.