I want to die

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by cradleoffilthfan, Nov 5, 2007.

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  1. cradleoffilthfan

    cradleoffilthfan New Member

    Hello everyone, I'm new here and need help.
    My reason for wanting to die are simple. I hate everything everything about myself.
    I've felt alone since the day I as born, I'm 20 and still to this day have never had a never had a girlfriend. I'm depressed every second of my worthless life, I've given up on every dream and goal I've ever had. I just want to be happy and love myself the way my friends and family do. But I dont know how. The only thing I really want is to get married and have a child. But I dont think that will ever happen, I've been alone all my life and I dont think that's gonna change.
    I dont even know how to be myself. I'm always trying to find out who I'm supposed to be in this world.
    I cant take much more of this depression for too much longer. I dont want my life to end like this, every day I wake up with the hope that something good is going to happen for me, something that will make me want to continue living, but it never does. I cant live with this pain for too much longer.
    If anyone has any good advise, I would really appreciate it. And please dont judge me, my story may not be a good reason to commit suicide for some people, but to me its an end to a painful existence.

    Thanks
     
  2. lil-sis-one-of-two

    lil-sis-one-of-two Well-Known Member

    Hi Ya

    I can really relate to what you are saying.

    If you need to talk I am here.

    I hope you find the support you are looking for on SF, I have I am on here most days.

    My Message box is always open.
     
  3. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    hi and welcome to sf, firstly no one here will ever judge you or your reasons so please don't feel that you can't talk to the people here.
    i myself am on the verge of suicide and trying to find reasons to live, as i am feeling extremely low today i doubt i can help but please talk to some1 about how you feel, even if its just venting here or chatting to some1 here, they are great and have been a big help to keep me around so far, there is nothng to be ashamed about and we are all in the same boat.

    take care my friend
     
  4. the best thing about this forum is that everybody here is in the same situation (wanting the same thing) no matter how old or young, we have 1 thing in common. if whatever u feel is reason enough to want to die then it does matter. people have all different reasons for not wanting to live and they are reasons that are important to them as a person. u dnt have to feel alone there r people here u can talk to x
     
  5. wanttodie

    wanttodie Well-Known Member

    this is so true. I think it depends on a person's endurance level and also the culture. Some people are extremely sensitive. I have had some people tell me that my problem is not that bad but this is what they don't understand. But I don't blame them at all. Infact, it's normal to feel this way about others when you are going through a lot of distress.
     
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