i want to die

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by morning rush, Jan 13, 2010.

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  1. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    i really do...

    I'm tired, so tired...nothing is going to get better...
  2. living hell

    living hell New Member

    lets talk
  3. suzy

    suzy Well-Known Member

    hope you dont

    i very much care about you

    and you alone

    this is not the time to do this and its cause you are important and this day is important

    you do things for people they cant do for themselves and you make a difference

    you always have

    lets say that i have my emotions to go by....that you may seem tired but i hope one little spark of energy will save your self and your heart

    you touch so many worlds....you've earned yourself some excitement as you build on who you are....i wrote for a living but it was dry reports....you write today and tomorrow it will be on different things....thats your work self...your personal self has been known to be available to those it the real world outside of this site

    here you have made an impact greater then you know by writing like you did just now of being tired....that takes strength i dont even have
    love you
  4. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    Are you okay? Not sure if you two are off talking and your getting support or not. I am around and am listening to if you post I will read it..
    Please let us know how you are doing okay.
  5. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    I just wished I was never born...and I feel guilty for feeling like that...I know its bad to want that...I should be happy today and all I feel is loneliness, anger and sadness...I absolutely have no point in being alive...
  6. Tam

    Tam Well-Known Member

    I reckon birthdays can be worse for misery making than even Christmas and New Year. I'm so sorry you are being made to feel like this, especially because it's your birthday. And I'd like to disagree with you about there no being no point in your being alive - if only you were able to see the good things you bring to others (us here for a start), that may not be enough to change that bleakness you feel, but maybe it will let you feel just a little bit, that your existence does have meaning, even if it's only for other people.

    Please hang in there, give the piggies a cuddle, let them remind you there are things worth being around for.

  7. suzy

    suzy Well-Known Member

    cause you're honest

    i dont know what you would say to others if you were feeling better

    but i know you to be honest about your feelings

    you would never take away anyone's feelings

    how about i just be grateful you were born....

    stay around let me help somehow....till it passes for you

    but this walk is a walk i guess needs to happen

    lets put the "should" away and just deal with "wishing" not doing what i "should" do doesnt help but my "wish" is below

    I wish you love....
  8. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    Hi Ana, you know you can talk to me! Please hold on because it always gets better for you!

  9. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    it never gets better, it always gets worse...I just handle it better some days...but really I'm all alone...
  10. suzy

    suzy Well-Known Member

    alone "no"

    you arent alone

    i like to think you're with us even when the house is quiet

    tonight here where i live they say snow

    you've had so much snow...our covering will be like a warm heavy frost

    but in your heart you struggle...quietly like the snow....

    for now survival is good but tomorrow you will begin to thrive.....thats why writing is a good thing

    lets me know...lets me show...just how i feel....even i wish to write you

    you are the important issue...you are you....alone "no"
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  11. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    <mod edit: *sparkle* : relates to deleted posts>
    I am entitled to feel down, to feel like the whole wolrd has swallowed me and that I feel alone...I have the right to feel it, and it takes great courage to admit what your feeling...something you obviously know nothing about...
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  12. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Living thank you for finding the courage to post about your pain and feelings. For reaching out and trying to find the support you need to get through this. Keep posting. Keep letting those that understand your pain help you. You deserve this support and care. And you are not alone. Everyone here in one way or another understands pain. Keep posting a letting those that want to help have that opportunity. Please dont give in to your pain. Dont let it win.

    The only thing that is immature around here is members that feel they need to post negative thoughts about the forum in threads of those looking for support from amazingly enough a support forum!!! That is better suited for Letters to Management so please use it.
  13. Lost.

    Lost. Well-Known Member

    You're right.

    I'm here for you <mod edit: *sparkle*: insulting> , living.
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  14. *sparkle*

    *sparkle* Staff Alumni

    i have deleted and cleared this thread out by deleting insulting, off topic and responses to those, posts. please keep on track and lets try to offer the OP some support here :)

    livinh in my own world - pm me if you need a chat sweet :hug:
  15. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    I dont believe that. And there is, inside you, a part that doesnt either. You're here, posting and letting things out. Please keep talking? Let's see if we cant make that part that wants to be here, that is trying to make it's point, a little more stronger. :arms:
  16. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    thank you so much everyone...I was so down yesterday it was horrible...I dont know what happen, why I was in such darkness...but I'm glad that there were people to listen and help me...
  17. Bambi

    Bambi Well-Known Member

    Hey Ana hope you are feeling better today, the lows do suck but we are here for you when that happens.
    Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk and hang in there it gets better and happiness can be yours.
  18. johnnysays

    johnnysays Well-Known Member

    Ok, so you were in a dark mood, and then the next day the fog lifted? I don't buy it. You're holding out.

    *stands patiently*

    Waiting for you to reply and be honest this time.
  19. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi i am here too but i do understand the struggles I am glad you can post when you are not feeling strong. You are not alone not with all the friends you have here okay. Thanks for all your support when i was down it mean't alot take care okay.
  20. morning rush

    morning rush Well-Known Member

    wow, thank you for calling me a liar...

    shows you know nothing about human mind/behaviour and you know nothing about me...

    I guess you were attempting to be caring but its back to the study board for you
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