I'm losing it right now. I recently survived an overdose in october. I barely survived it. After I got out of the hospital I got kicked out of college until I'm "ok to come back." So, I had to go to an intensive outpatient program. I was supposed to finish up by now and get back to school this month for the new semester. Then I got fucking raped. Now that's not going to happen. I feel completely worthless. My life is being ruined, it's basically over. I wish I died on that overdose. I wish I did. I want to kill myself. I want too. I just want this all to end. I want the pain to end, the flashbacks to end, this worthless life to end. I want to be happy I want to feel happy. Someone said, "Well it can't get any worse now so it can only get better." That's what I was told after the overdose. Then I get raped. I have no faith in my life getting any better. Zero. So what's the point?