who am i?
A boy aged 22 diagnosed with schizophrenia at 16 yrs of age.:sadyesi will sound incoherent and illogical so please pardon me).I take my medication everyday (and as a result also have developed dyskinesia)without fail.I go out everyday(i study in college)
(dont be rude to me)
Why do i want 2 die?
1. My mom is no more due to cancer (2 yrs ago)
2. My dad dosent live with me due to his career. (i am currently living alone)
3. Nobody cares 4 me. They ask me to do favors and i do it most of the time but when i ask any of them 2 do something 4 me they either say i will do it later (n forget about it) or straightaway say no...
4. Nearly all of them make fun of me. "He is a complete mad"(my peers say it) , "He is completely useless" (my father said it to me). They look at me as if the illness is my fault, as if it is my intentional willful fault(i wonder if u get what i am trying to say)
5. There is this girl in my peer group , lets call her Amy. I love her a lot , (only less than my parents) but it is an unrequited love - a one sided love. She dosent even talk to me , calls me a maniac, a madman.
I am too scared n nervous to say that i love her more than anyone else in this world . My peer group is quite large n i know that she will reject me.
Yesterday i tried to harm self with scissors (i am such a coward - i could have tried with blade so by this time i would be dead now) and now i am thinking of ending my life.
There is no point 4 me 2 live in this planet. No supportive friends or relatives , no Amy , a non supporting father...
This thread will end soon (cause i am going to die )
I ran away from my house 6 yrs ago, loitering naked in streets . I tried to end my life but failed.
I have my own vices (i experienced my 1st mas******** at age 14.I am such a pervert )I am a sinner . Please forgive me all of u.
I don't care if u ban me from this forum (for i am going to end my life soon)...
A boy aged 22 diagnosed with schizophrenia at 16 yrs of age.:sadyesi will sound incoherent and illogical so please pardon me).I take my medication everyday (and as a result also have developed dyskinesia)without fail.I go out everyday(i study in college)
(dont be rude to me)
Why do i want 2 die?
1. My mom is no more due to cancer (2 yrs ago)
2. My dad dosent live with me due to his career. (i am currently living alone)
3. Nobody cares 4 me. They ask me to do favors and i do it most of the time but when i ask any of them 2 do something 4 me they either say i will do it later (n forget about it) or straightaway say no...
4. Nearly all of them make fun of me. "He is a complete mad"(my peers say it) , "He is completely useless" (my father said it to me). They look at me as if the illness is my fault, as if it is my intentional willful fault(i wonder if u get what i am trying to say)
5. There is this girl in my peer group , lets call her Amy. I love her a lot , (only less than my parents) but it is an unrequited love - a one sided love. She dosent even talk to me , calls me a maniac, a madman.
I am too scared n nervous to say that i love her more than anyone else in this world . My peer group is quite large n i know that she will reject me.
Yesterday i tried to harm self with scissors (i am such a coward - i could have tried with blade so by this time i would be dead now) and now i am thinking of ending my life.
There is no point 4 me 2 live in this planet. No supportive friends or relatives , no Amy , a non supporting father...
This thread will end soon (cause i am going to die )
I ran away from my house 6 yrs ago, loitering naked in streets . I tried to end my life but failed.
I have my own vices (i experienced my 1st mas******** at age 14.I am such a pervert )I am a sinner . Please forgive me all of u.
I don't care if u ban me from this forum (for i am going to end my life soon)...