Every night I wish that I could just fall asleep and not wake up the next day, but sadly I'm still here. I want to end it all, because every day is the same. Self-loathing, suicidal impulses, infinite sadness and melancholy, etc. I left a message for a psychiatrist near me for a further diagnosis and treatment plan (therapist diagnosed me with major depression with psychotic features). I can't get pleasure out of anything.