:bi_polo:Hi, I find it very hard to talk to people in person due to my stutter so thought I'd try this. I suffer from chronic depression with psychotic episodes, and I'm really struggling to come to terms with the fact that I'm leaving Uni (I graduate in July) and will be under pressure to get a job. My girlfriend and I are moving to Spain in August, but even this cannot get me excited. I just feel so flat all of the time, I honestly cannot remember the last time I enjoyed anything. I sit and smoke cigarettes and weed whilst watching shitty shows on tv and YouTube, when I live in a lovely sunny coastal area. I have tried to kill myself twice through overdose, and think trying it again about it most days. My girlfriend is lovely and wonderful but I feel like I hate her even though I have no reason to. My family barely speak to me after all the months of no contact on my side it feels like they've given up. I really don't know what to do and I can't see this ending any other way than me killing myself.
Please help
Please help