Im 19, i know this girl in college, i love her so much it hurts.. But i cant ever picture mysefl with her because even if that could happen i could never let someone as perfect as her to be with someone like me.. I really care about her and i hate myself.. Shes this perfect/kind person.. so perfect it scares me sometimes... Thats why i feel even if i could be with her i wouldnt allow it and thus my life can never get better. I really wanna end it, i swear i wanna end it!!! but everytime i think of suicide i think of her and it hurts so much..