I am Kupuri, which means "life force" in the dialect of the Huichol Indians. I chose that name because of the irony of being called life force, when in fact my life force is draining from me everyday and is accelerating. My finances have been in a free fall since the 2008 economic collapse, and now my wife is leaving me and I cannot bear the thought of losing her. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I am scared of the dark, I have anxiety attacks, I sob uncontrollably. In a nut shell, I feel alone, hopeless, helpless, useless and my world is collapsing. I want the pain and sorrow to end... hello, it's me.