i want to go to hospital. i want and i need help, even if its just being drugged to fuck for a week. i want a means to and end. but not my doctor, psychiatrist or parents want me to go to hospital. i just want a break you see. i need help, i am asking for help, but people are saying i dont need it. i dont know what to do. i really dont want to be alone. i really want to go somewhere where people can help me. i am asking for help.