Am tired. I've always been unhappy ever since I was a child. I have a wife and son. I love them but I want to go. I've done so much- travelled the world, started a family. I recently left a teaching course and it's really set me off. I';m unemployed now and feel unemployable. I mountain bike in Wales alot. It's beautiful and remote. Forests, waterfalls, Mountains. I constantly think about riding my favourite route but mid-way walking off into the forest and doing something there. It would devastate my wife. I think if it wasn;t for her and son I'd have gone by now. Im ranting. Just feel so low.