I want to hurt myself

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by twing, Sep 1, 2011.

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  1. twing

    twing Active Member

    ok i don't consider myself a cutter i have never really cut only made light cuts that are more scratches and barely cut the skin. A couple of years ago my mum saw these cuts on my arm but anyway in the time between i havnt really done anything. Ive spent alot of time recently wanting to when im feeling depressed but don't because i don't want scars.
    I did not really think cutting was for me, im not sure several times recently it feels like a cant control my feelings like if i am putting a plate away in the cupboard or something i just want to shove it in and break everything.
    Whenever i go to cut myself i am surprised it wasnt deeper i guess my mind always takes over. It doesn't even really feel like i should be talking about cutting because they are so little it is irrelevant but this is what has happened the last few days
    i was arguing with mum and then picked up the scissors and made a slash at my hand it made a cut like half a centimetre long and didn't bleed, like i said im always surprised they are not deeper, later i made a couple of small cuts under my waist line.. i thought later that cutting just seems to be the thing to do to release pain but isnt really for me.
    So tonight i was frustrated with my life not being where i want it to be and i find myself wanting to cut again, thats why i came on here, i did make a couple of cuts then i chucked the scissors to the other side of the room so i wouldn't do it again, just a moment ago i thought it was stupid but now i feel like doing it again. I want to go deeper I don't even really know why i want to do it

    the cuts were only small, i promise i will not do it again, i always feel slightly stupid when i post stuff like this, i feel like im attention seeking maybe i am, i don't know
     
  2. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Hugs to you. :hugtackles: With support and caring...Mr. A
     
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