Usually I'll just stop talking to or associating with people for a long time but most of the time they hardly notice or don't care, it's just way too passive aggressive. I want to hurt people, make them cry, make them hate themselves like they've done to me. For example, if a certain female friend of mine ever breaks up with the guy she's currently dating, I want to ask her out, get her infatuated for awhile and then break her fucking heart inexplicably. I want to embarass and humiliate my douchebag former friends at our ten year high school reunion and have everybody laugh at them. I want to get successful to the point where people who don't talk to me act like they're my best friend and then tell them "Fuck off, losers. You're not even fit to be in the same room as me." Part of me is repulsed by some of these thoughts but another part feels really good about them. Sometimes they're the only things that keep me going. I don't really know what to think about all that.