I don't want to die, but I don't want to live either. Life is bloody awful and mine always will be. I'll always have had the same childhood, and embarrassing secret. I'll never be able to have a girlfriend, sex has been ruined for me. There is no job I want or future to work towards. I have no friends since I dropped out of school. I just play xbox all day as I'm too young to get a job (16). Everything is so boring and just seems so much effort, my brain is like mush and I can't do anything. Whenever I speak to people I just piss them off. This is more me just ranting then asking for help, because there is nothing that can be done. I've tried anti depressants and they don't work. I'm just always going to be a miserable bastard, unless I end myself. I just need to find a way where they won't find the body. <Mod Edit: Methods> ? Suppose I'd be dead so it doesn't matter, just rather not inconvenience people.