i want to kill myself really badly.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by TooShyToScream, Apr 29, 2011.

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  1. TooShyToScream

    TooShyToScream Well-Known Member

    Why won't this feeling ever go away? I always want to die it seems. It's not normal for me to not want to. I'm laying in bed thinking about what it would be like to never wake up again. For someone to find my lifeless body and pretend they care only until they stop being shocked it happened. I just want to OD or something. I don't know.
  2. titanic

    titanic Well-Known Member

    Hi TooShyToScream !

    Don't be too shy to scream - let out any pent up emotion it isn't doing you any good to keep it all to yourself and underwraps. Share with someone you can trust. Are you in therapy?

    You feel empty and lifeless (just a body) - I know how that feels, plus you are also confused about how you are going to cope and get through these difficult experiences.

    You may not feel it right now, but you are full of life, you are a wonderful human being created to feel emotions, both good and bad. Care for yourself, you are worth more much more than you realise.
  3. Ouroboros

    Ouroboros Chat Buddy

    :hug: not sure what to say, but wanted you to know someone was here. I've imagined that type of thing many times i don't think it helps, you can't know how people will react or deal with it. From my experiences it will be very hard for whoever finds you.. and anyone who cares about you in real life and on here, i have seen the devastation..

    you seem to believe no one will truely care, i'm not going to pretend to know about your situation just that people can surprise you, and even the connections made online can be strong ones, even people you may not have spoken to for years can still care. Even so, if no one did, you should care. Live for you. I know its hard, you have replied to me before, you seemed friendly and caring, the world needs that.

    Are you getting help in any way? it can really seem never ending, the only hope i see is that others have gone through similar feelings and made it through. What you have to do, which is really tough, is keep holding on, getting help, fighting it. The way i see things (which is different for everyone of course) is you can't be happy if you are dead, yes suffering is crap but its something i try to think about. There is hope. It won't seem like it but there is, you have to keep working at it, just as best you can, no one can ask for more than that.

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