Why do I want to kill myself? I'm 24 years old and never had a girlfriend. I don't know if I'm attractive or not. No one ever said that I was ugly but no one ever said I was hot. I don't know why I can't connect with women. I make guy friends easily. I'm funny, smart, very good a mingling with people and know how to keep a conversation going. It seems no girls give me a second look or show that they're interested. It's really hard to explain, but I'm tired of it. Many of my classmates from high school are married, in a serious relationship, or dating. I have no one and never had anyone. The real reason why I want to kill myself because I'm beginning to have psychotic thoughts. I see myself killing beautiful women and guys that get all the chicks. I'm beginning to want to destroy other people and I don't want to become a monster. I'd rather kill myself. I hate college girls who are so pretty and I know they never date me. I hate to be at work when some girl gets flowers or balloons. I hate seeing a couple on the street. I really feel as though at some point in my life I will go over the edge and commit horrible, horrible acts.