HI there, Im new here although i join awhile ago but never posted untill now. Ive made a mess of my life over the past few months what with relationships going wrong, being rejected for months on end and yes in the end I cheated it was away for me not killing myself and feeling good for that time. Its my Sons 6th birthday in 2 weeks and i fear I wont be around for it. So far I have used sex to keep me alive and the thought of my son not having his dad around but thats not working anymore. Ive already taken tablets and overdosed on injections I have to an illness but no affect as yet. I guess only time will tell. John.