They throw out all these terms and things and I just want to know what he did. He was drunk. I pushed him and tried to say no but his tongue was in my throat and I couldn't move. He fingered me after prying my folded legs apart. I never said no, even though I didn't want it at all. I get flashbacks and get sick remembering it. He made me feel like a whore. I wan't raped, it shouldn't be this big of a deal. He didn't rape me.