I want to overdose but not to die

[Ruby]

I want to overdose on a huge amount of medication. I've read that it's VERY toxic and can cause cardiac arrest (it has a major effect on the heart), seizures and coma. I have it all planned what I want to happen - I'd like to be found half dead, rushed to the resus room in the hospital, have a seizure, then a cardiac arrest and be put to sleep on a ventilator on the ICU. Is that weird? Please be honest. If I wanted to die I wouldn't want to be discovered, would I? I have a thing with overdoses - I enjoy taking them because it means the possibility of death and also a stay on the intensive care unit. I don't know why, but i've always liked the idea of being in intensive care. I think it's the fact that i'd be close to death and i'd also be cared for in a way that I haven't before. I'm not worried about suffering from cardiac problems or anything like that. Infact, i'd be PLEASED if it managed to do some serious damage. :mellow:

 

[Blackness]

hmm I can understand I guess.
Maybe to be "cared for"
When I was younger I always wished I had some kind of illness for the same reason or maybe not really hah.
ANYWAY, you have it all planned out in theory, but in practice things don't always go the way we'd like them to go....you can't be too sure, it may backfire..

 

[Sycotic_Sarah]

I want to do that too.

 

[Barbados]

Same, if I ever want to show anyone depression I wont whine on about it I will try and get as near to death without dying to show how serious I am.

 

[Ruby]

Thanks for the replies :smile:

The psychiatrist I see doesn't seem to think depression is a 'mental illness'. He's only interested when i'm psychotic. Why don't they take depression as seriously as psychosis? I don't get it.

Anyway, I done some research on the overdose and it's pretty lethal. I think that i'd end up in the mortuary rather than the intensive care unit. Haha.

 

[jjjack]

I want to overdose, but not die too. i want to be in a criticacl state just to prove a point and to show how i am feeling, how can i do this?

 

[total eclipse]

I think many do this to show how much suffering they are indeed in but the risk with this type of thinking is sometimes like a roulette game it goes to far and the person does not make it. They did not want to die but did my bro being one of them. I think your pdoc needs a wake up call maybe change to a new one that treats all of the mental illness not part of it. Depression is indeed a serious illness that needs attention as well hugs

 

[Socialman]

Munchausen Syndrome

Doctor's really hate when people do this, and even I've been accused of seeking attention by visiting the ER a couple of times.

I would actually like to be in a coma the rest of my life, but i do not want to be taken care of. I hate intensive care. I hate inpatient treatment. All it has done is forced me not to speak when I do go overboard.

 

[gotafewideas4]

i feel the same way i actually had a bottle of 5 sleeping pills i dont know if it was enough but i wanted to take them and pass out but not to die. and i still feel that way i just might consider another pill bcuz my boyfriend made me flush them down the toilet. ha ha but i got plenty more pills i just want somebody to care for me to and to sympathize with me.

 

[gotafewideas4]

i want to pass out from over consumption of pills but not die

i feel the same way i actually had a bottle of 5 sleeping pills i dont know if it was enough but i wanted to take them and pass out but not to die. and i still feel that way i just might consider another pill bcuz my boyfriend made me flush them down the toilet. ha ha but i got plenty more pills i just want somebody to care for me to and to sympathize with me.

can somebody help me figure this out

 

[Butterfly]

To anyone thinking about doing this or something similar, i would like to issue you with a warning. Coming back from a cardiac arrest isn't as easy as it is made out. There is a 10% chance of surviving if you go into cardiac arrest in hospital and a 2% chance of surviving if found on the street. It also depends largely on the cardiac arrest heart rhythm but basically if you go into asystole (flatlining) you are f*cked.

It is not worth it so please seek help.

 

[Slothbear]

I think a lot of this is just loneliness and having someone at your side and catering to you makes the person feel better.
It could also be the fact that they just don't know how to 'come out'(not as in gay) to their family, friends or doctor with their thoughts(depression, mental illness etc) and taking a near lethal dose of whatever is the only way they feel they can be heard.
Aka cry for help.

I'm not saying anyone who fails an attempt was just doing it as a cry for help and doesn't actually want to die because to be quite honest when i see people write that i find it ignorant and it pisses me off.

However this is a bit of a different cup of tea because you don't actually want to die so it is a cry for help as bad as it sounds. Nonetheless whether you want to die or not you your still having self harming thoughts which is equally as bad in my opinion and still deserves attention. You should seek attention because one day if you may actually go over the line and never come back.

 

[Loose]

I didn't realize so many people thought this way. I've seriously been contemplating it for a really long time now. Pills can be dangerous, but if you cut yourself bad enough you can get admitted as well.

 

[Petal]

I'm locking this thread as it seems people are 'dancing' around methods besides this thread has been revived, its from '07.