Where do I go if I want to put myself into a mental hospital? Should I just walk into any hospital and tell them I'm going insane? Or a police station? Where? Is it free, or will I have to pay? Will I need insurance? A referral? I feel like I need some fucking mental help. I feel like I'm becoming a god damned XXXXXof them at the same time lol. Anyway I just feel things inside me building up and making me more aggressive and explosive toward people, and I don't want to become violent. Sometimes I imagine just killing people when I see them doing something disrespectful, rude, or primitive, acting like god damned animals and heathens. Last week, I saw a XXX raising her voice at a cashier in a cookie shop. She claimed that her cookies were hard, and she wanted them soft. She wanted her money back, and the right cookies that she ordered. The cashier was telling her that she couldn't get it back and they couldn't give her another bag of cookies because her cookies were already bitten and she'd eaten one. It wasn't the fact that she wanted a refund, and what she asked for. What pissed me off was how she asked for it. She was yelling at the woman as if she was a dog. No respect, no couth, yelling like a barbaric savage, and throwing her money at the lady, like a monkey throwing his own shit, the heathen. I just wanted to XXXX her right then and there. Instead, I just gave her the most evil stare when she got her money back and walked past me. She was looking right at me, too, and I was WISHING that XXX WOULD'VE come over and do something. I would've <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Violent> if she so much SPOKE to me about the way I was looking at her. I didn't even turn my eyes away, I didn't even blink. I don't even know what got into me, but I hated her ass. HATED her ass. She doesn't deserve to live. The bitch. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>. Anyway, it's those kinds of behaviors from so-called human beings that piss me off. I want some fucking help. I just need a vacation to be somewhere away from these people.