Because I'm not sure I want to die. I have a plan to die though. Lots of rope and a conveniant balcony outside my bedroom. Though I've also got lots of money so I could run away too. There is a boy that keeps me where I am though. I'm also going to University because of him even though it is not what I want to do. We're not even together... but he makes me feel good. I can't imagine being away from him. I really DON'T want to go. I get so stressed and University will fuck me around... I want to TRAVEL so bad. By myself. But if I travel then my best friend will want to come. I have to do this on my OWN. I'm growing quite desperate.