I want to spend rest of my life drunk or high

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Ire, Apr 9, 2008.

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  1. Ire

    Ire Guest

    I have never been high before, tried DXM (robo trippin lol) but it failed pretty badly, guess I didnt do enough. I was pissed.

    Still, drunk is good.
    But I wouldnt mind spending the rest of my life drunk or high. Doesn't that sound nice?
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    That sounds incredible :laugh: wine on!!!
  3. SadDude87

    SadDude87 Well-Known Member

    Spending the rest of my life buzzed sounds divine. Not that I don't basically do it anyway, but to be able to do it without the drinking and ill effects. That'd be sweet
  4. jonstark

    jonstark Well-Known Member

    Don't know if there's an answer of the bottom of the bottle but might as well look.
    I've looked for answers elsewhere and I keep looking but I can't seem to find anything.

    Haha, plus it's a nice challenge. Because alcohol is supposed to destroy you and what not. It's bad for you. We'll just see about that.
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  5. 2cents

    2cents Well-Known Member

    just want to say cheers on :smile: *pass raspeberry juice around*
  6. galalleni

    galalleni Well-Known Member

    Just a note - been trying that path for a while (zombie state keeps you from doing anything rash - depression-wise). Bad thing is one day you suddenly feel an overwhelming urge to get food to eat or your source of money suddenly disappears - then it is to the streets, which stinks on cold nights, and that day when you don't have the booze it all comes rushing back to you in one fell swoop (for all the missing years of pain and your newfound homelessness).

    On a sidenote - if I were wealthy enough to do it - drink and high on (which has been my goal, actually, gone now).
  7. Cas

    Cas Well-Known Member

    I have spent the last 2 months in this state..it sent me temporarily psychotic a few times..:blink:
  8. Ed.

    Ed. Well-Known Member

    Not really, depression + alcohol = hell.
  9. voices_inmy_head

    voices_inmy_head Well-Known Member

    Would love to join you! Sounds like heaven to me!
  10. XXXXX

    XXXXX Antiquities Friend

    Not anymore.......

    But years gone past I used to spend 6 months or so a year 90% on booze and 10% on Methampthetamine, with the very occassional puff of Opium...........down in Thailand......I recall (vaguely!) that drinking sessions usually lasted several days at a time........maybe half a dozen or so trips like this?

    I found that 6 months of non-stop on the piss and etc was about my limit and still being able to return and function (and earn!) back home....but it was never easy making the mental re-adjustment, and I think if I had ever done a year non-stop I would have never made it back in one piece mentally. (like I was the full shilling before I went......or am now :tongue:).

    Part of the attraction was that I do have a self destructive streak a mile wide, and it was nice to fully indulge this - although I chose never to make the "One last big trip" I did think about. But having said that, I should easily be dead 100 times over from the stuff and wilful stupidity I enjoyed. A genuine puzzlement that I am not dead. Inadvertently by my own hand or by others.........

    The stories I could tell.......if I only I could remember :tongue:

    Nowadays I am way too dull :wink:, and I have no idea where the energy used to come from :blink:......although looking back, the Meth may have had something to do with that :tongue:
  11. ggg456

    ggg456 Guest

    i don't drink or anything but i do go manic and things and the thought of spending the rest of my life in some horrible/agitated state of mania-highness or allovertheplace-ness is just horrific. it's okay in small doses or as a change from depression which is nice. but after one month is enough, i'm completely wrecked and exhausted and i need it to end. especially if i'm cycling fast....it's like going on a rollercoaster. doing that for the rest of my life would end me in 1. a police station then into a psychiatric ward where i'd be put on mood stablisers or injected against my will or sectioned 2. dead 3. not being able to take care of myself, not eating and just roaming the streets and making people attack me because of my behaviour which i can't control..especially if all that energy is spent outside messing around and scaring people without knowing it..
  12. voices_inmy_head

    voices_inmy_head Well-Known Member

    I'm a manic depressive with a self destructive streak who would rather be drunk all the time, Can't get drugs anymore, too many drug raids so it's become too hard.

    Would love to be constantly drunk but we have rules about drink driving...
  13. Anon08

    Anon08 Guest

    Willy Wonka may have invented the Everlasting Gobstopper, but the person who invents the everlasting beer will have a fortune that would make Bill Gates bow down.
  14. hammockmonkey

    hammockmonkey Well-Known Member

    Too bad no one told me that my sorrows could swim better than me.

    Honestly, being drunk all the time gets old, same with being high. Maybe its just me that's getting old.
  15. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    i gave up drinking totally i believe almost 7 yrs ago now. i literally almost killed myself the last time i did it, but honestly what i wouldn't give to stay high constantly here on out. oh well here's to dreamin'
  16. fromthatshow

    fromthatshow Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    :laugh: there was a post that said depression + alcohol = hell and right underneath it a post that says it's heaven. hmm.

    I agree with this. I don't have a problem with substance abuse, but I can see how the zombie state (cut off from reality, denial of feelings) will in the long run come back to bite you 10 times harder from like galalleni said, the years of missing pain.

    My zombie state was self-induced. For some reason I just decided to shut down. Videogames, countless hours on the internet, porn, addicted to sex, addicted to any girlfriend I had at the time - were all my ways to keep up the zombie state and the denial. Then three months ago emotions came up and I've been so scared of them I've chosen to spend 3 months and however else long in panic because it's all I've left to cover it up.

    Zombie state through drugs and alcohol will definitely hurt in the long run.
  17. Clockwork Reality

    Clockwork Reality Well-Known Member

    I wish I could be drunk all the time. Things seem so much easier after I've had a few drinks. The world doesn't seem so bleak.
  18. theleastofthese

    theleastofthese SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I wish I could stay sober the rest of my life.
  19. Souther

    Souther Guest

    if been in a cloud of haze and booze since i was 13. It wouldnt recomend it. 30 bucks every weekend becomes 60, and that really starts to take its toll when ur working a blue color job.
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