I really do. I am sick of the scars and me having to hide them. It is the only thing that keeps me alive though. If I try to stop I feel suicidal. I am scared that I will commit suicide if I stop cutting. I am going counselling Tuesday but she doesn't help me. Am I a loony and can I stop cutting? I know I need help. I had to have a blood test to see what tablets are in my blood and the nurse pulled an evil look at my scars. I feel that I am addicted to cutting. I have tried to take my mind of it. I can't.