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This is my first post here. I have dealt with depression my entire life. I was around 8 years old the first time I attempted suicide. The last time was when I was a teenager, I was nearly successful and spent a week in the ICU. It was then that I realized I did not really want to die. However only way I could go on was to not think about all the things that had and continued to happen to me. I buit a wall, became an introvert and blocked out most of my life to that point. I remember that things happed but not the details. I reached out many time growing up to family and professionals yet never received help. Dont want to write a novel so i will fast forward to today
I am a mother of four grown children. I married a my man because he was the greatest man I ever met. (I learned what I did not want in my life ny observing my mother's choices) My husband is trust worthy, a good father and provider. However he does not believe in clinical depression, bipolar disorder, ADHD, ETC. (Our older son was diagnosed with ADHD as a child and later bipolar disorder. I was alone in trying to handle his issues growing up because my husband would not acknowledge my son's disorders until at age 18 when he was arrested. When the topic of my handling our son by myself my comes up my husband always says he did not help because the one time he did something our son ended up in jail. It was too little too late son was 18 years old)
My depression goes untreated because as I said my husband does not believe in depression thinks I should suck it up and refuses to allow me to get prescription medication to help. As he thinks they are "mood altering drugs". Husband is ocd when it comes to finance. I literally cannot spend a penny without him knowing and do not have access to any of my own money. In addition I've had 4 back surgeries, a neck surgery and expect to have another neck surgery Again my husband does not understand the level of pian I have on a daily basis. He fusses up a storm about me taking pain medication constantly insinuating that I am a drug addict even with proof that i im no way abuse my medicine. Now he wants me to stop taking my pain medicine as well. I work as a nanny amd try to explain to my husband the stress caring for 3 children puts ony back. The idiots reply was well don't pick the kids up
This is my first post here. I have dealt with depression my entire life. I was around 8 years old the first time I attempted suicide. The last time was when I was a teenager, I was nearly successful and spent a week in the ICU. It was then that I realized I did not really want to die. However only way I could go on was to not think about all the things that had and continued to happen to me. I buit a wall, became an introvert and blocked out most of my life to that point. I remember that things happed but not the details. I reached out many time growing up to family and professionals yet never received help. Dont want to write a novel so i will fast forward to today
I am a mother of four grown children. I married a my man because he was the greatest man I ever met. (I learned what I did not want in my life ny observing my mother's choices) My husband is trust worthy, a good father and provider. However he does not believe in clinical depression, bipolar disorder, ADHD, ETC. (Our older son was diagnosed with ADHD as a child and later bipolar disorder. I was alone in trying to handle his issues growing up because my husband would not acknowledge my son's disorders until at age 18 when he was arrested. When the topic of my handling our son by myself my comes up my husband always says he did not help because the one time he did something our son ended up in jail. It was too little too late son was 18 years old)
My depression goes untreated because as I said my husband does not believe in depression thinks I should suck it up and refuses to allow me to get prescription medication to help. As he thinks they are "mood altering drugs". Husband is ocd when it comes to finance. I literally cannot spend a penny without him knowing and do not have access to any of my own money. In addition I've had 4 back surgeries, a neck surgery and expect to have another neck surgery Again my husband does not understand the level of pian I have on a daily basis. He fusses up a storm about me taking pain medication constantly insinuating that I am a drug addict even with proof that i im no way abuse my medicine. Now he wants me to stop taking my pain medicine as well. I work as a nanny amd try to explain to my husband the stress caring for 3 children puts ony back. The idiots reply was well don't pick the kids up