I want to try to stop drinking. I have been drinking almost daily for the past few months. It all started towards the end of my rape case. My rape case lasted a year, and I realized that drinking really helped the anxiety I was feeling over the case. After the case was over I still did not stop drinking though. It was kind of a habit by then. The nights when I don't drink I just end up cutting. I don't drink enough to get sick or anything, but I am still just sick of drinking. I would let myself drink once in a while, I just don't want to be doing it alone every night. I don't want the added calories. Plus, when I drink by myself I tend to eat when I don't need to. Drinking helps me with suicidal thoughts. I know people say that "alcohol is a depressant." Well, for me it helps.