Want to punish myself, for being useless for having no friends. There's gotta be a reason I don't have people, and it has to be because I'm a bad person. Nothing else makes sense. So to punish myself for being bad, I want to cut, I want to od, I want to injure myself. I want to hurt I want to feel pain, I want to know I'm paying for being a bad person. I don't have people around me, I never will because I am a horrible person, otherwise I'd have a friend or two, I'd have people who would want to hang out wit me. I'd be invited places. But I'm not, and now it's time to be punished. Once I'm alone, it's time to be punished. I'm gunn a cut myself, I'm gunn a drink too much, I'm gunn a not eat, I'm gunn a burn maybe, I'm gunn a bite. I'm gunn a punish myself I'm gunn a make myself awRe of how much I have done wrong.