I want

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by starryeyed, Apr 28, 2011.

  1. starryeyed

    starryeyed Well-Known Member

    I want to tear ribbons from my soul
    and hang them decoratively for the unknown to see

    I want to stark the whiteness in my heart
    Pin pointed with absolutness,and shade it with tears of amber
    The colour of the rain
    As it falls from my cheeks
    Of denial
    I loved and loved and loved
    And the pieces of the filth of that rape
    Digs holes in the garden of my tomorrows

    Why am I alone ?
    I always remembered the birthdays and the special
    Moments and hugged each one
    Only to be rewarded by empty glances on a busy street
    Why am I debased and abused by all and sundry
    When the ones who kill and maim
    Walk the happy street of forgiveness
    Why Why fucking why

    Each day I hope
    That I will be whole
    That I can relive the past somehow
    But I am left talking to myself in a tortured cell
    I worked and killed my empty minuteswith pain
    Burnt psychotic moments
    Nurtured by the pretend family
    I slaved all my fucking life to please

    What am I now
    A sick twisted isolated number

    Too drunk to care
    Till tomorrow lands on my lap
    Wth the same old angry silence .

    Love to all the people of SF xxxxx :i'm sorry:
  2. MoAnamCara

    MoAnamCara SF Artist