In my dream i was dying and as i was slipping away i desperately wanted to live. I had killed myself (or at least i assume i had killed myself, it was too confused to know why i was dying) and it was too late to take it back. The feeling of slipping away to nothingness was terrible. Often i have dreamt of terrible things that have happened to me in the future. I'm not joking and they are often too fuzzy for me to understand them until the bad event happens. Sometimes I pay them no notice until the bad thing i dreamt about happens. This dream was the most realistic dream i have ever had, it was still fuzzy and confused but the sensations were very strong. Also unlike most dreams of this kind I have a good idea what it was about. However in the past when i have had a dream of a bad event and had a very good idea what it was about the bad event has always still happened. The bad event always happens on a impluse decision that i know is wrong but somehow can't stop myself from doing it. Considering this is it now only a matter of time before i kill myself and regret doing it as i die?