...when I spent the weekend at my sisters best friends house. She and the rest of their family went out some where and her oldest brother stayed home to babysit. I don't remember much except for the actual event. He touched me in places I was not comfortable with, and well he... and I remember looking out at their pool and just crying wanting to go home. I came home and up till now, my life has changed. I am now a young adult, and I find myself finding it hard to get into a relationship as I cannot approach girls as I feel I am to bashful. "Why would a girl like me?" I think to myself. The last two girls I have been with sexually, well, I broke down, blacked out and felt like I was five years old again. Since then neither of them have really talked to me and that makes things worse on my self esteem. Both my parents, and my sister are aware of what happened. While my mother was apologetic and even called the mother to explain what happened (without details of who was the victim), my father and sister pretty much shrugged it off completely. I feel like this is ruining my life, I don't know how to get past this so I can get over this bashfulness and actually have a successful relationship. Thank you for reading.