I had some fun with friends during my work off days. I didn't know how my right eye got injured as a result. I have seen my GP referring me to the eye specialist and the eye specialist have done some tests confirming my worst fear - Glaucoma. Now I am on eye drops (4bottles). the doctor told me the bad news that the damage is there and will be there permanently. It's not about the pressure in the eye but the optic nerve has been damaged by the injury. I was not born with any visual issue at all and I can't behave normal while receiving news of myself getting diagnosed with Glaucoma. While the right eye vision is still blurry while typing this (relying on my left eye to read), I will give up everything in my life to get my right eye to recover. I have not been sleeping much after receiving this sort of diagnosis since 9 August. I was actually planning and confirming my death plan. If I were to lost my right eye, I don't see the meaning for myself to live on any longer. I am already on the verge of acting out on my plan anytime if my right eye vision just go black. I think nobody will understand me. I don't know what to do except to pray for my right eye to recover. Every single night, I am hiding in a corner of my bedroom crying myself to sleep. Why did this happen to me?