no significant life changing event has made me the way I am. its just how I am. I just cut myself... the first time in 6 years. seeing the blood on my arm is a little consolation, proving that there is something inside me. now I have to hide the cuts from my husband. I didn't think af anyone while I was doing it. I need to take all the pills I got today so I have no more to hide from anyone. my life feels like one big secrect!